As a child growing up and through decades of being an adult, my strong upbringing and culture have instilled in me a trait that has subconsciously guided and influenced my behavior towards myself. That trait is modesty, with humility as a virtue attached to it, the true meaning of which was severely obscured, as how I've experienced it. It made me timid to the point of being emotionally paralyzed, whenever the opportunity to assert my original ideas or show my special talents, arose. It allowed me to feel intimidated when loud voices muted my own. At some point, I realized that this attitude did not serve me well on the practical aspects of life. It has taken me years to undo its effects on me. I certainly did not pass it on to my children. It took me many years to raise my awareness to the point where I was able to allow myself to shine, at the right time. My self-doubt has slowly but surely eroded. I have learned not to minimize my self-worth, if only to please others. I've learned how to remain modest without being timid. Now I can express pride in my works and accomplishments with all humility. Because timidity does not equal humility. Humility is being truthful to myself, accepting of my strengths and flaws.
It's overwhelmingly joyful to see how my realizations have led me to my personal success.
My cup of gratitude is running over.